Jennifer Grassman as a toddler

Dear Dad I Never Had: I Miss You. I Love You. Happy Father’s Day.

Dear Dad I Never Had, As you know, we have never met. It’s not because I didn’t have a dad. I did. I had a biological father, but he didn’t love me. So, he wasn’t really a real dad, was he? But you were. I imagined you. I missed you. I still miss you … every day. Jennifer GreenbergShe’s a …

A Conversation Between A Newborn & Her Mommy

“Mommy, please hold me,” the newborn said. “I have never been alone, and I don’t like it.” “Oh darling,” Mommy said, “You’re never alone. Sometimes I have to set you down so I can take care of your big sisters, or make lunch, or take a shower, but Mommy is always nearby.” “But Mommy,” the tiny baby insisted, “I need …

How The World Looks From Here: Elowyn Lenore, Born August 26, 2012

BEFORE (August 25): I felt absolutely horrible, was very swollen (look at my face!!!), and in a good deal of pain the day before she was born. I had a feeling I was going to go into labor soon, so I painted my nails blue (my favorite color) and snapped one last picture of my low, low, belly. AFTER (August …

Why Does God Let Babies Die? Miscarriage, SIDS, and Infant Illness

Miscarriage may seem an odd thing for a mother to ponder after giving birth to a healthy, pudgy, baby girl. And yet, I am confronted with it. I feared miscarriage throughout my pregnancy, even having nightmares about losing baby Elowyn, and here I am blessed with a tiny, gurgling, kicking, and constantly hungry miracle of life. Two of my dear …